Hello, anon. :)
No. Not really. You may think I am a person who opens her life for everyone, but I am actually pretty closed up when it comes to talking about my life and its issues. Before my 10 years old, I was fine sharing everything when my friends needed, like when going through a bad moment. I still do that but I am afraid when I do it because I can hurt, just like when it happened with my first best friend. Just like that, she started to dislike me because she told a teacher that a book was her and the teacher found out it was mine, and we were just kids. I was in 5th grade and my best friend betrayed me just like that by telling everyone my secrets I had shared with her and starting to cyberbully me.
I suffered all my 5th grade putting up against bullying and cyberbullying because of her. I received so many messages with words of hate like: “Kill yourself.”, “good for nothing”, “weirdo”, “know it all”… that I just turned my mobile phone after 2 weeks to never turn it on for 8 months.
But, I was just little at that time. I would come home and cry and my parents didn’t knew why. I begun to get sick and not going to school because of my nerves and fear and after going to hospital so many times, the doctors told my parents that I was showing signs of depression and there was something going on in school that trigered my sicknesses.
That really hurted me and today, because of it, my confidence is not that high. Of course I changed towards my fear of people as I grew up, because the world is full of broken promises but also full of chances not given to others. I always believed that others always had a light inside them and my best friend, I still believe she had. Because my feelings and memories I had with her were not fake, I could forgive her today and be friends with her again.
Wow, I really talked a little bit about my life where but I just wanted to say that even after everything, this is a place where I found really amazing and kind people, just like I imagined when I was small. It’s like that child inside of me is just smilling because she was happy - through her life she really found friends she could call family, and this site applies just like she envisoned.
When you’re a family, you love each other no matter what you have done, what is your past and where you came from.
A family consists of trust. And that’s what I have here.
Besides, when I came here I decided that I just didn’t want to be “that internet friend who you know nothing of” like schools say. Rather I would always hate that definition and I would rather show who I am than just let people think of everything except me.